Silent Truth

I tuck my pillow behind my right arm
kicking my left leg out of the sheets
taking in a deep breath
I toss to my left side
2:27am
I curl into a ball
the blanket to my chin
only to lay on my back shutting my eyes
wishing my mind would take a rest
3:48am
It's too hot
Throwing the blankets off my sweating body
I take a walk
It's too cold now
4:02am
The tossing turning into frustration.
It doesn't matter where I am
What type of thread count sheets I have
How many pillows surround me

I can't sleep without you.

Twilight Movie Geek Part I

Here we go again...

More Twilight crap...

I bought tickets for us to go see the movie at 12:15am this Thursday night. And in the spirit of being completely nerdy we made shirts. It worked so well the last time we made them we figured we better have something twilight. I bet you money we will be very dressed down for the occasion.

Ma sista.

My favorite KaraLee

Mr Edward Cullen

Thinking up ideas.

Alyssa's genius mind at work

Alyssa sleeve finished. She did that with her own hand - crazy.

Somehow KaraLee suckered Alyssa to help with her shirt.

Here is the finished project of my t-shirt.

And last but no least...FANGS!
Yessssssssssssssssssssss

In the process of fixing fangs.

Sweet eh?
Bring on the movie!

Quirky Rachel

Just for fun here are some weird quirks, facts, or habits about myself right now.

1. I crave sushi and slushes all the time. Thats right, I crave having them together at the same time.

2. I can't clean without loud music, and some sick dance moves (on my part of course).

3. I have a very unhealthy obsession with Justin Timberlake and James Dean.

4. I read way too many trashy novels

5. Most days I do my makeup in the car

6. I set my alarm clock for six in the morning, then I hit the snooze button until eight. I don't know why I don't just set it for eight - its just a habit.

7. I am attracted to guys who are COVERED in tattoos. Like Travis Barker status.

8. I look at peoples shoes a lot. You can tell a lot by their shoes.

9. I listen to a lot more country then I would ever let others think I do.

10. The deepest heart felt conversations are always between Reggie and I.

11. If I go to the store to buy something I NEVER buy the first one on the rack. I always have to get the one that is two or three behind the first one.

12. I day dream constantly. At any given moment there is always some sort of story going through my head.

13. I have this massive collection of stuffed animals. I have them all stored away in boxes, I cant give them up though.

14. You could be my favorite person in the entire world, but if you try to talk to me within the first hour of when I wake up - I hate you.

15. I wish I had fangs (Nerd alert)

16. My Mom's brownies are by far my favorite dessert.

17. I have listened to Christmas music all this year. Even in the dead heat of July.

18. I will buy books I've never read before, but I will not buy movies I've never seen before.

19. I'd love to really sit down and do a huge cross stitching project.

20. I still get coloring books and color. Something about it is so peaceful.

And there you have it.

Wednesday Night + Boredum = Masterpiece

I really crack myself up sometimes!

That is all.

Gay Marriage

Proposition 8 has been such a heated topic lately. I can't help but share my views on gay marriage. As most people know, I have a lot of family members who are close to me and gay, one of them being my own father. I feel like I have been on both sides of the fence on this issue, I also feel as though I could argue both sides as well. Finally after thinking about it and truly understanding where each are coming this is what I have come to believe...

America is called "The Land of the Free". It's this beautiful country where you can be who you want, vote for who you want, read what you want, watch what you want, think what you want. History has shown there have been many battles of what we believe is free or not. Such as interracial marriage, black rights, women suffrage. All of these heated issues that back in the day were so insaine. Most people these days would tell you interracial is marriage is fine, judging someone by there skin color is wrong and women deserve to vote and be in the work force just like everyone else - so what makes being gay so different?

I do believe that eventually the conservatives will no longer be able to fight this battle of banning gay marriage. I believe one day the generations behind us will not understand how closed minded we were to try and choose who someone can and can not get married to.

Before I really get your blood boiling please understand this. I am in no way trying to convince you or anyone else that being gay is right or that gay marriage is right either. That is your personal decision and I will respect it.

One of the gifts that no one can take away from another is free agency. God gave this to us for a reason. In the LDS religion our free agency is what proves what type of person you are and if eventually you will make it to the golden kingdom. No one besides God can tell you what will and will not get you there.

You nor I have the right to take away someones free agency regardless if you believe it is a wrong or a right choice. Every person should be able to make their own bed and lie in whatever mess they get themselves into (whether that being a good mess or bad). Telling someone who they can and cant marry is crazy! I will never understand how someone can justify that it is ruining the sanctity of marriage. If you are really going to pull that crap - marriage has already gone to crap anyway. Over half of the marriages never last and even a bigger percent of that are not faithful with each other. Sanctity of marriage is between you and your husband/wife. If gay people effect that well then, you probably better check to make sure you nor your partner are gay.

I believe God will be the ultimate judge on what is wrong and right. I feel people who try and control another person are trying to play God. You dont have to change your beliefs on what you view is morally right and wrong, but trying to control someone elses is pushing it.

Deep in my heart I know marriage will sooner or later be legalized in all 50 states. Yep, that even includes red blooded Utah *gasp*! I hope everyone can start getting use to the idea now, it might save a lot of grief!

XanGo Convention - Overdrive

Tonight as I rest my sore aching feet, I decided to do a little recap of the last week.

One of the biggest times of the year for XanGo is convention. Every year in November we head on up to the Salt Palace Convention Center to somehow organize, entertain, teach, inspire, and serve over 10,000 XanGo distributors. This year was my fourth one. I have a love/hate relationship with this time of the year. Trying to keep up with my normal job and spend half the week standing on my feet for hours a time really gets me cranky. Honestly, it is good to see and be reminded why I do what I do. I'm constantly reminded that what I do changes lives, even if I dont see it every day.

This year, I worked the juice bar in the XanGo store.

Da Juice Bar

The store is the fun part of convention. Every day distributors wait hours in line to run through the store like crazy people to get there XanGo SWAG, sales tools, sunglasses, and lets not forget free juice! I literally poured XanGo juice into little cups for three days straight. The hours usually are not too bad but Friday I was working from 9am until midnight just to wake up the following day and head up there again. I can now say I know what it feels like to work for 15 hours straight. I hope to never say that again.

I would have never made that shift if it were not for these amazing people...



From left to right is Lani, Jen, myself and Travis. If you ever get stuck working all day I highly recommend working with these peeps. They had me laughing and enjoying my time while I was there. Because, if you are having fun so are the customers.

Here are some pictures of the store.

This was right next to the juice bar - some tables to drink that cold Jesus juice!

I loved this shirt you cant really see it, so just trust me.

Bling! Bling!

Everything you need to be a XanGo gangsta.

Everything orange! Ah!

You have no idea how awesome these backpacks are.

XanGos new product this year a skin care line called Glimpse.

Inside the Glimpse store

Glimpse fountain.

Travis doing that pourin' thang!

Ben playing the wii

Jake and Redis

Me and T-Dawg

Mark, Jake, Redis, myself and Travis' OCD juice pattern.

Also, this year XanGo had aerialists in the middle of the juice bar doing amazing acts. Yeah, talk about talent.

Travis thinking he is a Pimp.

Thankfully today was the last day - I am burnt out. We served over 50,000 bottles of juice. Those distributors were drinking juice like it would save their souls. Good thing they think that - it keeps me a job.

Tonight, I am going to sleep like a rock.

It's Time For A Change

Last night Americas 44th president was selected. Barack Obama himself.



I just wanted to take out some time to say how proud I am to be an American. Watching history happen right before my eyes always amazes me. Only two generations before me was segregation still a heated issue. Now, we have our first black president. Being a Liberal myself, I am thrilled to have a democrat in office. I feel as though we need a change. The last few presidents keep doing the same old song and dance. I think although the economy is struggling now, eventually we will be back on our feet again. I can't wait to see what the future holds.